Have you ever jumped in the water only to realize that you didn't take a big enough breath to sustain the depth you plunged? Burning, aching and then panic sets in. You feel like your not really in your own body, you watch your surrounding and they seem to move at a different rate.
Today I dropped my boys off for a four week visit with Jon. I feel like their gone. I can't seem to comprehend not seeing them for a month. In some ways they are my oxygen. My heart is burning, aching and I feel like it can not get enough air.
It's like watching the world from a merry-go- round. Your have an overall sense of sickness, but you continue to look out at the world.
I miss them so much I keep wishing someone would push the fast forward button.
2 comments:
I can not pretend to know what this feels like and to be honest knowing myself that I will not see them or hear from them for a month hurts so badly that I don't want to try to imagine what it feels like from your point of view. They are your strength and the three of you have perservered through seemingly insurmountable odds time and time again. YOU have prepared them well for life and they will be strong and smart and come out just fine on the other side. I admire your strength and am very sorry for your pain. I love you.
Are you going to post any pictures from your adventure? I would really like to see that one of you and star irritated and exasperated:)
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